Friday, 15 January 2010

My King is coming!

I received an email from A.Irene just moments ago, and it was about the signs of the second coming of Christ.





And I got scared.






The more I read, the more I felt guilty, worried, terrified even.


I haven't been going to church.
I haven't been worshiping.
I haven't been reading the bible.
Heck, I haven't been praying!!




Just at that moment, I came to full realization: I cannot call myself Christian. For I have done nothing in the past months to connect me to Christ. And I am ashamed of myself.


You know when Pastor Caleb was preaching about how we shouldn't shun God away in the cupboard? And we all agreed, and vowed that we would never do that? And guess what? I did it anyway. Only this time, He isn't even in the room anymore.


And so I cried. For the lost of my darling Jesus in my life. For the lost of what once was a great connection between me and Him. For the lack of joy from not being able to worship and praise Him.




So I watched some live Hillsong videos on Youtube. And I found myself yearning, aching to get back that connection I have lost. The peace, the joy, the inspiration I feel when I lose myself in Jesus.



That's just it: I want to get lost in Jesus.




I want to forget the world. I want to isolate myself in a room with Jesus. I want complete silence. I want no knowledge of time. Just Jesus, and only Him.




Oh God, I am so sorry I have forgotten you. Now I know, and now I have realized. And I will try to keep you in my daily life, for I know I cannot make a promise to You. But oh God please, help me remember! I loved you with all my heart. Make me love you all over again.


I know you have already forgiven me, that I know. But I must now try to forgive myself.


















Monday, 14 September 2009

It's About Time

It's about time I updated.


As most of you know, I'm coming home soon. Real soon.

7 exact days to be precise.

WHOOOO!!!!

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

The Women DVD

"Being a woman is a gift"

                              - Jada Pinkett Smith

Wednesday, 1 April 2009

50 Random Reactions

I got tagged:


50 First Reactions!

This is called 50 first reactions... Type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1. Beer: Heineken

2. Food: Awesome! 

3. Relationships: Wanting one?

4. Crush: Is gone :(

5. Power Rangers: Shesh!

6. Life: Is beautiful.

7. The President: Obama? Don't really have an opinion

8. Yummy: Real tiramisu. Layered sponge soaked in coffee syrup with whipped mascarpone. Delightful!

9. Cars: Bugatti Veyron. Just so hot!

10. Movie: Confessions of a Shopaholic. Wanna watch!

11. Halloween: Not for me.

12. Sex: Is for marriage.

13. Religion: Christian. And that's what I will always be.

14. Hate: People with no manners

15. Fear: Insects. And failing.

16. Marriage: Can't wait! (Not that I have one yet, haha)

17. Blondes: Are not all dumb. But majority.

18. Slippers: Thongs. So Aussie.

19. Shoes: Are what I wear? 

20. Asians: In Australia are so Lala.

21. Past time: Watch movies.

22. One night stand: Will never know.

23. My cell phone: Needs a change. Iphone please! Or a Blackberry.

24. Smoke: Eww.

25. Fantasy: If humans can shift into animals. And again, it's a FANTASY

26. College: Is awesome! I'm doing something I love!

27. High school Life: Could not have been more insane. Why? Jia Rong and Carmen la!

28. Pajamas: Baggy baggy shirt and shorts.

29. Stars: Are brighter here.

30. Center: Belly button? Haha.

31. Alcohol: Rosemount on Ice. The most awesome wine you could ever taste.

32. The word love: Is not all happy.

33. Friends: ARE for life.

34. Money: I need more. More!

35. Heartache: Experiencing now.

36. Time: Not enough!

37. Divorce: Not in my vocabulary

38. Dogs: Golden Retrievers

39. Undies: Boyleg Hipsters

40. Parents: Are coming in 24 hours!

41. Babies: So Cuteeee!

42. Ex: I'm glad I'm over you.

43. Song: Hallelujah Song by Julienne Hough

44. Color: Black.

45. Weddings: Are awesome! When's mine?

46. Pizza: Italian wood fire pizzas. Awweessoommee..

47. Hangout: Jazz Club

48. Rest: Lying in bed underneath my quilt. No, snuggling in bed.

49. Goal: On my way of achieving it.

50. Inspiration: Comes from anything and everything you see.

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

And then.

You called this morning.

And then my heart broke.